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Speech Dawn Read at the State House in Boston, Mass.
 National Missing Children's Day 2008

WHEN I SENT A GROUP EMAIL SAYING HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY OUT AND MAGI RESPONDED RIGHT AWAY.. SHE OFFERED A HUG OR A SHOULDER IF I NEEDED ONE AND ASKED ME IF I WANTED TO SAY SOMETHING TODAY. I SAID I WOULD.. SO MANY THOUGHTS RACE THROUGH MY HEAD SO MANY DIFEERENT FEELINGS, SO MANY MEMORIES, AND SO MUCH SADINESS. THERE IS NOT A DAY THAT GOES BY THAT I DON'T THINK OF MY SISTER AND MY MOTHER. NOT A DAY GOES BY THAT MY HEART DOESN'T ACHE.

I LIE AWAKE MOST NIGHTS NOT ABLE TO SHUT MY MIND OFF TRYING TO GO OVER THINGS IN MY HEAD .PLACES WE HAVENT LOOKED , PEOPLE WE HAVENT SPOKEN TO . WILL WE EVER BRING THEM HOME TO REST IN PEACE…???????????

ON THIS FRIDAY MAY 23RD, IT WILL BE 15 YEARS … 15!!!!! ALMOST ˝ MY LIFE … NOT ONLY IS THEIR LIVES BEEN TAKEN OURS, THE FAMILIES THE BROTHERS, THE SISTERS, THE MOTHERS AND FATHERS… OUR LIVES HAVE BEEN TAKEN ALSO … WE LOOK AT LIFE DIFFERENTLY … WE HAVE FEARS WE NEVER HAD BEFORE. WE HAVE SADINESS THAT NEVER GOES AWAY. WE HAVE EMPTINESS IN OUR HEARTS THAT WILL NEVER BE FILLED. WE ARE CONSTANTLY LOOKING FOR ANSWERS INSTEAD OF ENJOYING LIFE. AND I KNOW IT HAS EVEN AFFECTED MY CHILDRENS LIVES…

MY SON WANTED TO BE HERE TODAY WITH ME … HE IS NAMED AFTER MY MOTHER AND MY SISTER. HE WANTED TO BE HERE FOR ME "MY HERO" NEVER LIKES TO SEE MOM SAD… HE SAID HE WOULD WRITE SOMETHING AND READ IT… BUT "MCAS" WIN …. SO HE CAME DOWN STAIRS @ 10:30 LAST NIGHT (I THOUGHT HE WAS SLEEPING BUT NO., HE WAS LYING IN BED WORRIED ABOUT ME. AND HOW I WAS GOING TO DO TODAY...)

HE HAD THIS NOTE IN HIS HAND AND A LUMP IN HIS THROAT….

HE IS 9 ˝ YRS OLD HE SHOULDN'T HAVE THIS BURDEN ON HIS SHOULDERS HE SHOULDN'T BE THINKING ABOUT SUCH A SAD SUBJECT HE SHOULD BE HAPPY ….. SO I SIT WITH TEAR FILLED EYES WISHING I COULD TAKE THIS PAIN AWAY FROM HIM… FROM ALL OF US …